I was walking straight
all the way straight without looking back
I stumble unto things that tempt me to turn back
but I still decided to go on with my journey
It was all good
I was happy and
There it was
At the back of me
Catching up so close that I can feel it breathing down my neck
It's my past
my unresolved dramas
and here I was, thinking that I'm well ahead of it
I tried fighting, I tried running
but something inside me failed me
And here I am
questioning myself
coming up with more questions than answers
coming up with all the What Ifs and If Only(s)
not realizing that
no matter how much What Ifs and If Only(s) I think of
I still won't get the answer cause I did not do what I wanted to in the past
I thought I was strong and I can finally close that chapter
But I was wrong
Is it cause I keep telling myself that I'm on the right track?
Is it cause I close a part inside of me so I wont walk backwards?
and if I do that countless time I will finally believe that I'm on the right track
and I'm lying to myself cause I'm afraid of the truth?
I will never know unless I put on my brave face
pull up my courage
and face it, deal with it
whatever the outcome might be
good or bad
happy or sad
Should I close the chapter I told myself that it was history?
Or should I recreate back a new history?
I should now close my eyes and get some sleep.
I'm lost in the sea of thoughts
